Awakening to Self: Navigating Ego Trips and Finding Belonging

The journey of self-discovery is a complex and often bewildering one, marked by numerous awakening cycles and the occasional stumble along the path of ego. For many, growing up is a time of uncertainty, of feeling like an outsider, a loner who observes life’s wonders from the fringes. It’s a period where isolation can paradoxically become a source of solace, and the mind is free to wander through realms of magic, dragons, and druidism. This narrative, one weaves threads of fantasy with those of self-awareness, takes us on a profound journey through the depths of personal awakening, revealing the power of consciousness and the struggle to find one’s place in the world.

A Childhood Apart

As I reminisce about my early years, I recall the feeling of not quite fitting in. I was the perennial loner, content to keep my own company, never receiving invitations to the coveted birthday parties that were the hallmark of childhood friendships. The isolation I experienced, contrary to conventional expectations, was a source of profound reward. It was during these moments of solitude that my imagination took flight, conjuring realms of magic and wonder.

The Awakening

High school, the age of transformation and self-discovery, introduced me to a book that would forever alter the course of my life. It was a book my sister had, a book filled with fantastical tales of AM Merlin, Ascended Masters, and the enigmatic concept of consciousness. At that age, these ideas were regarded as nothing more than elements of a captivating fantasy story. Little did I know that they would serve as the seeds of profound awakening.

The Quest for Belonging

Years passed, and the feeling of not belonging persisted. I yearned to find my place, to fit in, and in pursuit of acceptance, I adopted and discarded personas like costumes. Each attempt was a desperate search for belonging, but it was also a journey towards a truth that would eventually find me.

The Revelation

In a moment of clarity, I experienced something extraordinary – a “channeling” where someone’s consciousness merges with another aspect of consciousness, and knowledge flowed from a different perspective. It was in one such session with the Ascended Masters that a profound revelation occurred. They spoke to me, saying, “When you are very clear that you did not come here to belong, when you are clear that this is something that you created, you will never know what rejection or loneliness is ever again. Because all the humans blessed one, have just been playing on something that you and your group created, do you see? So how could you feel rejected from playing with the humans?”

The Message from the Masters

In an earlier session, the Ascended Masters had shared another message, one that resonated deeply: “You are already evolved, humans are evolving, they truly do not understand. So that’s why it is important to talk about, you know, ah this makes me feel good, it brought me freedom, it made me feel free, it made me feel alive, it made me feel relieved and safe and comfortable, yeah.”

The Struggles of the Spiritual Community

Within the spiritual community, I encountered many who sought to preach and guide, often delving into topics that held no relevance to my journey. These individuals, when faced with rejection, often wove empowering stories, but they failed to comprehend the intricacies of human awareness.

The Tiger and the Village

A poignant analogy from the Ascended Masters likened our interaction with humanity to that of a tiger attempting to play with village children. They explained, “Of course, they’re going to run screaming, they only want to play with you if you can have a chain around your neck and be tied to something. Do you understand? They only want to play with you if they can master you but you are not to be mastered. You do not belong here, you may choose to visit from time to time but only if you’re going to be regarded in all your splendour. Do you see?”

The Unanticipated Brutality

The brutality of humanity’s actions often left me stunned. It was not a path foreseen by my group, and it added an intriguing layer to my journey of discovery. Despite the challenges, there was a deep-seated desire to return and reignite the potential for the Earth to regain its glory, and for humanity to join in that transformation.

Conclusion

The journey of multiple awakening cycles, punctuated by ego trips and the quest for belonging, has unveiled profound insights into the nature of self and consciousness. It has shown that true acceptance and understanding may not always come from conforming to societal norms but rather from embracing one’s unique role in the grand tapestry of existence. As we strive to navigate the complexities of our own awakening, we must also consider our role in the greater awakening of humanity and the Earth itself.