Over the years of diving into what we could most likely refer to as an exploration into understanding self and consciousness, I've often found myself discovering different concepts that have left me with a feeling of being completely isolated and alone. I've been feeling the 'isolation' for most of my life and a session with Rebecca Dawson a few years ago explained that there is a reason for this. I also believe that this feeling is more to do with the expression of what it is that I've been seeing & diving into and not being understood. When I am exhausted, the ability to express these concepts isn't so straight forward and it makes it more difficult when there people are holding on firmly to their understanding and wisdom as they have taken years to come to that level of understanding.
In fact, there was an experience of having my exploratory process come against resistance. Although, "my guide team", have said that this resistance will be a normal thing and that there will also be criticism of what will be written in the future. They have also said that there will be times where I will go... WTF! The Archangel Metatron explained that in having been a scribe for one of the many lifetimes in Atlantis, we had resistance to the wisdom that we were sharing then and that there will be more in this lifetime. Thus, I have been aware for many years that when trying to bring forward differing wisdom to that of what is perceived to be the norm, or within the collective belief structures, that it will be met with some form of resistance rather than an explorative and curious nature, which is the purpose of writing all these articles.
The purpose of writing these posts, sharing my thoughts, is to open the mind to what is beyond rather than accepting something as gospel. Each person has their own unique flavour and experience in the interpretation of wisdom. I struggle quite a fair bit with interpretation of what I see and at times, have no idea how to explain it, much like this concept of what is beyond the "I AM". It can get troublesome but I've realised that it is more practicable to sit, focus and write what it is that I want to share and to go on a written journey with you and right now, this is what we shall do together.
What is the I AM?
When entering the exploration into self, mental health and what can essentially be described as an awakening which is when you begin to seek & consume wisdom, you will often come across a term known as I AM. The I AM is used quite a fair bit in neural reprogramming as a technique for mindfulness, recoding the brain to believe in something else that is positive. I AM WORTHY is an example, where that reaffirmation is used to recode the belief of self into saying, that the person is worthy.
I remember seeing the phrase I AM WORTHY OF LOVE in the movie "Long Shot" with Charlize Theron & Seth Rogen. The movie itself was absolutely beautiful and to be reminded of the time when I had to remind myself that I am worthy of self-love was pretty cool. It really is a fantastic movie to go see! So from the perspective of mental-health and change development, the use of this "I AM" is really worthwhile. To use it as a form of identity, to define who you are, well, I have issues with that myself and have written about this in a previous post.
The Spiritual Community, if that is what it is referred to as, has taken this further with the implementation of the I AM PRESENCE and that, according to many articles written on the interet is defined as, actually, multiple things, depending on whose interpretation that you use. The Summit Light House writes: "Your I AM Presence is surrounded by seven concentric spheres which makes up the causal body, These spheres of pulsating spiritual energy contain the record of all your good works. They are like the bank account." St Germain Press writes: "The Mighty I AM presence is the individualised flame of light from the Heart of the God Life of the Universe" and there are many various interpretations but they are ALL around an individualised expression.
The I AM movement which was founded in Chicago in the early 1930's by Guy W. Ballard, based on a bible verse when God said to Moses "I AM WHO I AM" (Exodus 3:14). The I AM movement was established in 1932. This movement was created to make people become aware of their God Presence, which flows from God, the mighty Creative Fire at the centre of the universe. The Encyclopaedia Brittanica also notes that the I AM movement also promotes American patriotism.
The "I AM movement" was introduced to humanity in the 1930's through the Ascended Master St Germain.
When I was doing a series of Monday Night workshops, there was a specific exercise where they told us to connect with the "I AM Presence" and something did not sit well with me. Prior to this one single session, I began pondering on what The Masters said back in May of 2015, "You are no longer an "I" that you are a "we". This line was brought to my awareness again by Amy and it got me wondering, should I be saying, "WE ARE" if I am not an I?
During this night, I was shattered, I was exhausted, I was tired and could sense the moment I walked in that the organiser was also having a bad sort of day because it appeared that the person wanted to create some form of argument. Towards the end of the night when the "I AM" thing surfaced, what I thought was going to happen, unfolded. It was as if it were a pissing contest with whose information was valid, for which I had no care for in the world, I was TIRED!!! So when the lecture of the "I AM" began, I responded with... "I don't care" and that seemed to have triggered something because I kept getting told that I should care and in the end, I just cut it off with the phrase "It appears that there's been a misinterpreation with the phrase, I DON'T CARE!"... I could hear my bed calling and we could have come back to this conversation on another day. Apparently I have an elitist attitude because... I DON'T CARE!
It's like walking across the road to figure out what's on the other side, you're in a state of curiosity, you're exploring but there's people telling you not to go because it's the end of the world, they know, they teach it, that's all they have but you want to explore it for yourself. You want to see for yourself, you're curious, you've got a thirst for exploring. So you're going to explore and that's what I did. Things didn't align and I wanted to settle some confusion.
The concept I was exploring is that since I've been personally told that I'm a 'group consciousness', an 'incarnated oversoul', that I am not an "I" but a "WE" then should that not be "WE ARE"? If the NEW EARTH only has room for one, which is oneness then it IS about "WE ARE" because it's about unity... "THE WE" and if humans are going to follow on and that is incarante as a collective of souls in one single body (read over the article, Planet's Engineer) then each individual would represent the "WE" and that means... Goodbye "I AM" and say hello to the "WE" and that is why I've felt the "I AM" is not really relevant, at least to me and my own experience. As Amy explains below, for some, it is vital to their journey and for me, it's a different journey.
This is what Amy had to say about the experience.
Really Steven, what we see here is different perspectives and people who have these different perspectives, they are going to come from all walks of life, all different backgrounds and they're going to have different comfort levels and these comfort levels, are something that they need for a while. It's a little bit like a child that is learning how to ride a bike that has training wheels, for a time, they need those training wheels, they absolutely require them but one day, they'll take them off and ride a bike like normal, so think of it like that when you encounter people like that on a spiritual path, a lot of them still have their training wheels on. So we can't judge that right! We needed training wheels at one time too and some people are going to use training wheels their whole life, that goes without saying but don't judge it, everyone learns at their own speed.
Now I know, you're probably going to say, "Yeah, I don't judge it, I don't really mind but here are they are lashing out at me and saying I've got it wrong and they've got it right" but that's part of the training wheels, of course they're going to think that. They're either going to think it and not say it or think it and say it, depending on the person.
So when you talk about what your beliefs are, people will either disagree or agree yeah? and the ones that agree, they may bounce ideas off of you, you can kind of grow together, you can share together, this sort of thing and you could certainly teach and learn from them. The ones that don't agree can sometimes be teachers as well, sometimes very important teachers because they help you to stay on your game, they help you to stay on your toes, they help you to make sure that everything that you're believing in, you check back in, do I really believe that? and you check-in and go Yeah, I really do, I really really do, I don't see how it could be another way.
So, I would say this, monitor how it makes you feel when someone disagrees and then work with what you get. In other words, if it is negative, work with it, positive, embrace it. So what you're really doing is deciding what you can tolerate, what you can't and learning your boundaries, learning your limits and its not in any way that you shouldn't talk about spiritual things with people, that's fine and that's what you're going to do, you've put yourself out there in that manner but the bigger thing here is that no-one is right or wrong. I know that is going to sound controversial to you, I know right off the bat you're going to say "well, people can be wrong, people can be very wrong" and that's true in one respect but what I mean is, think of that person, with their training wheels, you know that the bike is supposed to be rode without the training wheels yes? That is the way it is supposed to be but that doesn't make it wrong for the individual that still needs the training wheels because for them it is not right for the bike to not have them, it's not safe, it is too much, too soon. So what we could wrong, oh they've got it all wrong, we would say instead, and I am speaking collectively here for Spirit Guides in general, we would say instead, they have it the way they need to have it for now and the same thing is true with judgement.
If someone is judging you, your abilities, your beliefs, whatever it might be, let them hold them for right now, that's somewhat serving them in some way, don't feed into it yourself, don't make yourself feel "Yeah... they're right". Would it be right for them if you were riding along on your bike without the training wheels to say "Hey, you need training wheels". No, it would be ridiculous because you're way beyond that point but it would be ridiculous for you to try and put training wheels on when you don't need them. The point is, different speeds, different stages, different development, different backgrounds, different perceptions, different, different, different and people get so caught up on right or wrong and I know that judgement hurts and I know the labels are unrealistic at times but try to remember the source, consider the source. If a small child is judging you, you would probably laugh it off, same thing goes for an adult that's their soul is at a younger age or they're understanding is just, you know maybe they've spent a lot of lifetimes here on Earth but haven't really spent a lot of them developing their spirituality, so what happens then?
It is not about right or wrong, all of us, all of us have to get out of that. I say "we" a lot because I put myself here on the Earth, I say HERE on the Earth, in this world, in this dimension because I want you to know that I know what it feels like, I know the struggle, I know the frustration, I KNOW, I GET THAT. That's why I want to be a guide because I get it, I want to help from every angle possible.
It's not about justification, it is about noting the differences in people and especially in their development stages. So the longer that you're on the spiritual path, the more you're going to encounter of this, the more people you're going to see that either judge you or... judgement at all is something that is important to let go of as a species but will take time.
So WE ARE sound right to me too but I AM is very very very strong in people's consciousness for a few different reasons, it has to do with certain teachings, it has to do with the rate of evolution, it has to do with the collective perceptions as well due to the first two thing really but mainly what feels right for you is what's right for you and what feels wrong for someone else or off or not resonating is fine, it's fine and you teach what you believe in and you feel is right, you have to always do that, you can't be teaching what doesn't feel right or resonate for you but what that means is that those that come to you and stay with you will be people that resonate with you and that are on that same level or close to it and learning rather than those that are just waking up or that sort of thing. Even then, some of them will come to you, it's not really about what stage that they're at and whether they're going to come to you, I'm not suggesting you're only going to get advanced practitioners for example. You will get different varieties, it's more than that, it's the stage of evolution but it is also the background and what that person understands and what they don't. The language that we use is a big thing when talking about spiritual teachings, so some people are going to be naturally drawn to or naturally repelled by certain language. That's why there are so many different teachers out there so that there can be a teacher for every student, for every seeker.