In May of 2021, a brief conversation was had with someone I know and the experience that came from it has been an intense experience where all bodies of the physical form has gone, what one could call insanity but the experience of this has been so profound that I believed it would be practicable to write about the experience from multiple perspectives so that others can understand and have the wisdom that I've learned in order to try to bring peace, grace and ease into the physical form as the emotional, mental, physical and spiritual bodies go through this rapid experience.
My own experiences have seen the mind make up a variety of different excuses to try and get into anger as it runs around in loops trying to find an escape, the emotions go from love to depression and the physical is having experiences that a logical approach doesn't seem to make any sense, whilst intuition is driving me bat shit crazy although it's telling me that I need to focus somewhere and won't let me off the hook. However, to understand the entire experience, I need to talk about the scenario before diving into things.
Opening the Heart
On the 5th of May 2021, someone I know made a post about how disappointed they are in humanity and wrote an incredibly beautiful essay and after reading it, I commented with the word "agree" as honestly, I agreed because the way I was feeling at the time was put into words so eloquently and beautiful. It appears, when reading the conversation that I knew I wanted to get to the topic of Philosophy and this person shared an experience and their philosophy and it opened the doorway to a greater discussion. I shared the Heart Activation Music project, the Forgone project and there was so much in common that my entire form because to vibration at a higher oscillation. I was unable to sleep for a few days to be honest and it was such an extraordinary experience.
The impact of this conversation, finding similarities in life's work, led my chest/heart area to begin vibrating in a way I had not experience before. It was as if all the cells within the form had been electrocuted. I was screaming in love; I was expressing love and some of the things that I was sensing blew my mind away. There was a new guide that was present, with a loud male voice that I had heard a few weeks before that had mentioned this person's name prior to talking yet, I wasn't aware it was this person, I had dismissed it thinking it was someone previously in my life with a similar name.
The heart was vibrating so much that I felt like I was an a huge high, as if all my visions and goals had come into some form of reality, it was as if all my hopes and dreams just popped up and said... "Hey, here is what you're looking for as part of the next step" and the levels of excitement were through the roof. A few days later, after this high, came the low. I described this as diving into 3D reality and it stretched me, it, in a way, brought on a sadness.
Truthfully, I thought I had said or had done something wrong. Fears and emotions from previous experiences had surfaced, traumas had surfaced and the task to keep the heart open was at hand. With this crash, with this dive into past traumas, the largest trauma that I had experienced needed me to dive into the centre of it all. An opportunity for a life change was present but what was happening?
I also asked the question: How did this person have the ability to bring my protective guard down and have this impact on me? I'm always skeptical, I'm always guarded because I've experienced all sorts of shit from people in the years, from those who believe they're spiritual and awakened, to being betrayed by the wife. So many relationships and the way I've been treated left a big scar, a mild case of PTSD. So with all this protective measures... How did this happen? Well, I've got the answer to that!
Keys to the Heart
Father God & Jocelyn Joy Thomas
On the 20th of June 2015, I had obtained a reading from Jocelyn Joy Thomas back in the days she was doing written readings and as I had no questions, it was a complete message on my own experiences in life. This is something that I only recently rediscovered looking for something else on the 10th of June 2021. So you can imagine my surprise when the answer was already given, 6 years ago, almost to the date.
These people are like key holders, they help you to open new doors within yourself and to find long forgotten messages from your higher self.
Father God Message
Certain people can open your heart because they remind you of who you are and where you have been. These people are like key holders, they help you to open new doors within yourself and to find long forgotten messages from your higher self. These people come in now in greater and greater numbers and you will know them by the way they make your heart feel. You see, the keys they hold fit into your heart, so you will feel a heart connection to them. It is not always romantic, many of these people are friends, some will be brief encounters, others longer but what matters is how you feel about them at the heart level. They can be male and female, they can be of all ages and walks of life. There is no way of knowing with the exception of the heart, the heart knows.
The keys they hold fit into your heart, so you will feel a heart connection to them.
In order to utilize the benefits these people bring to you, to their maximum potential, be sure to open your heart and allow for it to be very alert to heart awakening signals. These are words, expressions, or even sounds that others might make that alert you at the heart center that this is someone important to pay attention to that something different is happening here. It is outside of the norm, and then wait and see what happens next. There are few encounters that will be blatantly obvious, most require you to notice and take it in, to receive the words or actions of the person and then allow it to work its way into your heart. If you are not alert these things can ping right off of your heart, not matching your vibration. We are assuming in these scenarios that the carriers, the people coming to you are at the right vibration or else they would not show up at all. You will recognize them as one of your heart brothers or sisters and feel their love even when they may not be transmitting.
It is outside of the norm
The Physical Pain
Father God & Jocelyn Joy Thomas
The physical body has been experiencing physical symptoms, as mentioned above, the heart stretching as if it is growing pains and noticed a cycle that was happening, there was the Heart Chakra experiencing pain on one day and the next day the Solar Plexus was experiencing pain whilst experiencing a lack of motivation and procrastination, in fact, I spent an entire weekend not doing much at all. So, what the heck is happening here?
Also with the mind, the person who triggered this has gone from two days of intense communication to dead silence, it's trying to fabricate things that aren't even true and it's giving me the shits, I know it's more of a coping mechanism to try and close the heart, but I won't allow this. The Ascended Masters have always told me to open the heart, allow it to be felt, allow it to touch the Earth. Thus, I know how important this opportunity is to try to keep this open.
In December of 2015 in another Father God session with Jocelyn Joy Thomas. This was shared about the physical pains I was sensing back then, and whilst the question I asked was about something else, the wisdom that is provided is relevant to right now. The mind is trying to escape the experience and without stillness, one cannot commune with the experience and find peace within the chaos.
The pain you feel is a shift in consciousness.
Father God Message
To some extent the pain you are experience is due to the shifting in consciousness, yet it is also due to outside factors causing you stress. Your environment, your health, the people around you and even your diet, stress contributes to all of these and so the problem has several sources.
Your condition would be improved if you were to rest more, and to find deep peace. There is so much going on in the brain that it causes you to feel over-worked and over-stressed. Resistance to environmental conditions keeps your immune system and body systems having to work harder and harders. Toxins you are exposes to do not help. Work on eliminating these, resting and finding deep peace.
In this intensification, rest is important.
The way towards silencing the mind and connecting to the external is through a dedicated practice of stillness. The mind and all of its wandering can then stop the way is then clear on how to proceed. The emotions are also a problem, they lead you to become unclear on what it is that you are experiencing, they are cumbersome for you. Allow for what comes in to be, with no judgement but also work towards peace through stillness and acceptance.
Focus on stillness of the mind.
Unmerging with Amy North
The test to walk on my own
Amy North is my Spirit Guide & Twin Flame and we've been very hands on, as in, she's the only Spirit Guide that gets involved and enters this side of the veil and for the past number of years, we've been in a state of merged consciousness. By this, it means that her energy and my energy were intertwined with one another. It was an agreement that was necessary to the rapid development and experiences that I needed to get through and to essentially "catch up". I did not know just how much of my own stability was a direct result of being merged.
Whilst we had obstacles, challenges and all sorts of different experiences that knocked me about, a lot of my stability was because we were merged and tapered with the energy of the divine feminine. Amy, in one of her many forms that she has, is the Goddess of Love & Purity and my life was always surrounded in love. She is a devoted and loving guide and it's been an incredible experience, honestly the luckiest guy alive. To experience love like this is truly remarkable.
The timing of the series of events were precise, there is no way in hell this could be 'coincidental' because Amy stood back as this person, who just so happened to have had a key to unlock my heart in the way it did (was not on purpose) and the test for me was to be able to navigate life without the guidance from her. Although, I have always been aware that this day would come since 2019. I just never ever expected it to occur like this and to swear my head off whilst I was at it too.
My body didn't know what to experience, my mind didn't know what to think and it was the strangest of all experiences. It was as if a part of me had been removed and my entire comfort zone had been obliterated, what I came to know as my normal was no longer available. What also happened in this experience was that as when Amy stepped forward, a strong masculine energy stepped forward, I sensed it, others sensed and any person with a tender heart would be impacted by it, any person that was sensitive was also impacted by it.
The Divine Masculine stepped forward.
This masculine energy that stepped forward is strong in nature, that I called it unf**kwithable because it's about getting things done, it's about results, objectives and moving forward with powerful speed. So this is another new thing that I'm having to adjust with and get used too. As you can see, there is layer upon layer of this very rich and deep transformative experience.
Master Ol Ya Ma
The call for help!
I had come across the Spirit Master Ol Ya Ma in November of 2015 when I turned up to an evening of channelling where he spoke about the tough times that I had been experiencing, the tough times that I've had throughout life and how my heart had been broken many, many times and that there have been many times where I've thought of not wanting to be here and as he's a soft, wonderful, gentle and loving Master spirit who has wise gifts, I turned to him to get some guidance and assistance as to how to proceed with this experience.
The session was booked on the 26th of May 2021 which was on the day of the Lunar Eclipse and he enters the session with this loving and beautiful message.
Oh Greetings, greetings! Happy, happy, happy day today, change, change, change, beautiful movement happening, cosmic pillow fight happening in a delightful manner, all is well. This is my greeting to you my beloved Steven.
Master Ol Ya Ma could see that something was going on in my mind, usually I would talk about other topics such as what's occurring energetically and have a form of "spirit coaching" but this was something that I needed to help bring myself back to ease with. The entire experience had knocked me about and thrown me sideways, the unmerging, the heart opening and something else was happening at the same time, which I will get too after this segment. The whole thing caught me off guard!
Ol Ya Ma advised that being caught off guard is a good thing as it's not always a clever idea to be so very guarded but it's one of the movements of life, which is why he spoke of the pillow fights. He explained that this twizzle (his words) was not deliberate, was not done intentionally and it was not the person's purpose to make me feel unsettled, it was more to do with the fact that this person wanted to express something to me, something that they felt within own heart/energy field.
It is through this cosmic dust being sprinkled around and to not ignore this because my own mind and energy system is saying "C'mon Steven, you're not getting off the hook with this, there is something to pay attention to here" and my intuitive mind and my sensing/feeling field keeps letting me know.
The mind can go round and round in circles until it finds a way out, you know a bit like an animal that's caught, keeps running around looking where to go to escape.
In this experience, I need trust the intuitive mind and my own sensing/feeling/knowing systems more than the mind itself, trusting my heart energy and sense things. Much like a wolf follows a trail in the path. Let's sense this out, let's feel this out, let's get more of an understanding rather than past experiences where I've felt a little bit like jumping into an ocean but forgotten whether I can swim or not. With this, you've learned from experience to instead, relax, sense, feel before you go forward, so it's more trusting the intuitive knowing, the inner knowing rather than jumping into the ocean and hoping to remember to swim.
We need to be mindful of how we portray experiences like this because the physical body itself that can arise a certain anxiety, concern, and fear. So, we want to say, let's just see, almost like soothing the body so that it can feel, adjust, and relocate.
Also understand that as you have been impacted by this experience, fear can arise because as you said, it is like unchartered waters and to just take your time is the essence of this.
The Weird Sensation in the Body
I also mentioned to Master Ol Ya Ma how there was a complete weird sensation in the physical form with the unmerging with Amy.
Weird, the weird, do you know the weird? It comes from the lines, some call it the lines of the Earth, but it is also the thread, the movement of the energy. So, the weird is the pathway that is not the norm, which is not the societal norms. The weird is the way.
So let the mind that's gone "Oh this is weird" and go beneath that, as you can so well, and feel the weird, feel the thread, this is the movement that I need to keep moving along with this sensing/feeling, like the spider, she knows her web. It's like the great web of Shiva, is the weird.
So very appropriate word but sometimes the mind can make it seem bigger and will create panic and adds extra fear and anxiety to it. The mind will become overstretched and overstressed and that's not what we want to experience.
That weird thread, it is like a golden thread, it's like Shiva's thread. Shiva is the one who keeps the balance, the dancer, is sometimes shown into mythology as the dancing figure in the middle of the circle, in the tarot it is like the world.
As you can see, this weirdness is an invitation to something else, something more and needed to be explored and have been doing so and recently realised that there is a big experience when Lord Shiva's presence shows up and this is what leads into a non-duality experience.
Living in Grace
Master Ol Ya Ma spoke to me of hour my soul wants to live in grace which is also something that is required to move into the non-dual reality. Christians understand grace to be a spontaneous gift from God to people - "generous, free and totally unexpected and deserved". Hinduism sees that grace is the unmerited favour of the god, which is freely bestowed on the devout seeker through the redemptive will of the god for the purpose of saving the embodied soul from repeated rebirth. Grace is also seen as the Hindu law of perfection that grants everyone access to the most profound truths of existence, so long as they begin the search consciously. You have grace, I have grace, we have grace; and no one is left out.
Although I do not believe that grace is a gift from God nor an act of redemption but more so as something we are, we can be and we can express and as Ol Ya Ma points out to be below, it's within me in abundance.
Learn the grace that is within you, you have great grace, both the universal grace is there for you in abundance but also the grace within your very being. Grace is one that allows us to feel, like a martial arts master, they can be in the middle of a fight, but they are centered in grace. This is what your soul wants to learn and to live in this way.
The Non-Dual Reality
As Master Ol Ya Ma was saying to me above, the weird sensation that I'm feeling in the body is an invitation to Shiva's Net or Shiva's Web which is a form of reality. Amy would always send spiders to me as a sign, not just because they're in abundance but as a reminder that we weave our own world, our own reality. Therefore, the concept of Shiva's Web of Reality was already planted in my awareness. There was an inspirational thought received to search more on what exactly is the Shiva's Net or Shiva's Reality and a remarkably interesting article surfaced called The Non-Dual Reality of Lord Shiva by the American Institute of Vedic Studies.
When I first began this journey of looking for something 'specific' and going from psychic to psychic, one of them said to me... "You're working towards balancing with triality" and in the article "Navigating Extremes - Published on the 29th of March 2019" I share a little bit more on duality.
Duality is defined as an instance of opposition or contrast between two concepts or two aspects of something: a dualism. The State of Triality is about being free of the state of duality by introducing a third component, spirit
Lord Shiva is known as 'The Great God' and is one of the principal deities in Hinduism and is the Supreme Being in Shaivism. Shiva is known as "The Destroyer" and is the Supreme Lord who creates, protects, and transforms the universe. It is said that Shiva is the primal Atman (soul, self) of the universe. Shiva also represents the non-dualistic Absolute that is beyond the scope of duality and dualistic world of time, space, and karma.
Shiva awakens a higher awareness in us, but for this to occur he must first take us beyond all our preconceptions, making us see the darkness of ignorance behind our lives, and the spiritual ignorance at the root of our minds and society.
When I referenced back to the session with Ol Ya Ma, I realised that there are many layers to this experience and dancing with Shiva is not an easy thing to do. When we contact the Reality of Shiva, we must face all doubts, fears, traumas, and difficulties within ourselves and learn how to move beyond them with steadiness, insight, and grace. We must recognize the limitations of the mind and its particularized knowledge that cannot grasp the whole. The traditional portrayal of Shiva is not meant to present us with only a pleasing appearance, any more than life is always kind or nature conforms to our desires. Our encounter with Shiva is meant to shake us up, to stir our inner transformative energies – to get us to question ourselves and all that we may hold to be truth or reality.
Shiva is the supreme reality, not we ourselves, our ideas, opinions, books, or institutions. Shiva is the cosmic reality, not our individual or collective imaginations and fantasies at a physical human level. There is no box we can place Shiva into, no formula or structure that the mind can arrive at that can comprehend him. He overflows the universe on every side, within and without.
Disconnect the Human Mind
This is when I realised that the experiences that have since been triggered is this dance with Shiva and moving out of a duality-based reality and into the triality-based reality and it involves looking at all aspects of self, the mind, the emotions, the physical and to have to take the courage to run with it. The human mind creates much havoc for us on both sides of the veil, it is the lower-self or ego that wants things in a certain way. This creates separation not only with others but within. Once the human mind is disconnected, once the chatter, the endless stream of meaningless thoughts ends then the way towards peace is available and when you have peace, you can find truth, you can be truth and that is when the soul memory becomes available for you to read.
I've written a bit more about the Disconnecting & Decoding the Human Mind in this article and may revamp this message at some time.
It is with this awareness and truth that we become one with the collective, one with the soul and to BE the truth. Finally, it is a journey and a beautiful experience to have a different viewpoint of the reality that we live in.
To Summarise the Experience
A Summation of the Insanity
As can be seen above, there are many, many, many layers relating to this experience and I've been able to understand it in a logical manner by feeling into things and following the breadcrumbs of what has been said. There are things such as the shift in consciousness, moving into non-duality reality, the emotions, the feelings of depression as people begin to see the constructs and beliefs of 3D reality being expressed.
Honestly, if it were not for all the years of experiences, I passionately believe that I would not be in the position to have my heart unlocked in the way that it did. The person who had the key, in my own perspective is an inspiration and someone I hold dearly to my own heart. Whilst the timing of everything was perfect, I felt the love, I felt the soul and the passion that this person has, and it has been a uniquely beautiful experience in one that I will never ever forget.
Whilst I still am experiencing all sorts of things in this moment, I'm using this wonderful opportunity to bring change to my own life. As the Ascended Masters said to me four years ago, after a period of four years things will begin to move, things will begin to take off and that was said four years ago. So, with faith, with trust, with hope and with love, and hope, I am jumping off the cliff and praying that all of this will all work out.
The Song Shiva
Finally, I've also channelled Shiva & Pravati together (non-duality) and am in the process of finalising a song with it, I've still got to get back to completing it, but it will be finalised at the proper time as I wanted to document the experience of working with Shiva in music.
... and finally
I want to thank the friends that have been incredibly supportive of this disruption that I've endured, that have allowed me to dive deep into the experiences so that I am able to come to an understanding of the nature of what is occurring (They put up with my bitching). I also wanted to document this experience because of all the different layers that are happening at the same time, the different perspectives and views that come to exploring this reality that requires one to face their deepest traumas and wounds. I am forever grateful and loving of the person that triggered this, such an incredible, life-changing, and beautiful gift.
What also happened with this unlocking of the heart was a surge in creation energy and my Instagram profile got flooded with poetry, videos, and all sorts of different expressions of creativity. Check it out, I'll try to bring the poetry over to this website soon.
... and thank you!!!