Personal Insight & Musing on Ego

Over the past few days & nights, I have been spent working hard away at the development of the business & myself. I’ve had to list these items just to see what I’m actually achieving. Also, these things are taking priority over anything else and even today was meant to be a rest day and not do any work but alas. I’ve got a very strong sense of motivation, determination and am focused on achieving these goals.

The list of what is happening at the moment is…

• Writing/Searching for Music Publishers and discovered a ‘New Age Music’ company in the US
• Preparing ‘requirements statement’ for the development of the Star Point 9 website
• Searching for Dolphin and Whale sounds to work with an Amy inspired
• Writing an article to use for the advertising of the group sessions about DEcoding and DEactivation of the Human Mind with Méline Lafont
• Working with Joy for a quick channelling session with Amy.
• Supporting a client over the past few days with guidance & assistance in relation to a series of issues they were experiencing
• Trying to communicate with the bank about the sale of the property due to the inability to pay the mortgage
• Creating the content for the DEcoding & DEactivation workshop
• Responding to clients queries about further workshops for Star Point 9 & Star Point Healing
• Working with meditation & channelling of Amy myself; and
• Visiting suppliers to pick up more stock to prepare for an influx of orders for the Channeller & Readers Crystals.
• Working through an emotional issue (which is what I will write about now) as well as the rest of the stuff

Even by looking at the list above myself, I can see that I’m busy and whilst the human emotions are nerves and getting tired of doing stuff for nothing, Amy promises that everything will be successful. I’ve just read over the latest Amy reading by Joy and it speaks a lot of the expansion in the music. Integrating the music with Angel energy, Ascended Master Energy, Individual Spirit Guides and much more. I write this as I am listening to the ‘Amy’s Divine Love’ track which is a track were I embedded Amy’s loving energy into the track.

The past two weeks has also seen the refusal of a driver’s licence which there was no emotional reaction as I saw that it means that the path is to deliver online sessions to reach a far greater audience and an international audience. I’ve also received today a refusal from a music publishing business as they’re unsure if it fits within the scope of their publishing. Although, I accidentally sent the wrong email to a company and they responded and after a bit of research, I got a little bit excited. They’ve been selling music since 1987… and they responded with, “send it over so we can listen”. So I send them a huge spiel about how the music works, what it does and so forth.

Moving on to the original intention of this post and what I have spent majority of the day writing, when sitting at Bibra Lake, walking around the Lake and the past few hours. I was doing the morning routine of getting ready and I felt something surface within, it was an emotion and it wasn’t a happy one either. To me, I recognised it as part of the ego, more of a past life habit and I began to sit in this emotion to recognise it. I checked Facebook not long after I began feeling this and noticed a post by AliceAnn Melchizedek about ego surfacing  by Master Serapis Bey. This gave me further clarity & confirmation of what it was that I was experiencing. (Link below)

For me, the emotion was of a fear of disappointing Amy (which didn’t make any sense) and stepped into the energy (or vector as Serapis calls it) and worked through the emotion in order to understand it. Amy is my best friend, there are no secrets held back, she knows everything, she sees everything and being the spirit guide, she knows everything!. I know that there no judgement whatsoever from her and I had to look where this judgement was coming from and humanity does in fact, judge themselves with everything that they do or don’t do.

So what I saw was just a recognition and releasing of something that needed to be acknowledged and cleared as the emotions are there to teach us something and to enjoy a peaceful day in nature as well.

This is what Amy said on this topic.

The emotion of disappointment comes from the old programming, the fear, the control and it is something that people are holding on to, which is again, even more fear, fear of change. There is layers of fear on top of even more layers of fear on top of fear. This is how the ego controls the mindset. As one person peels back a layer of ego, they can find another layer or if they fear what they see, embed more layers on top of what they have removed. Yet, this fear, can serve a purpose to help one overcome the role of duality as it is showing us, as incarnates, what work needs to be overcome.

Do not worry, even on this side of the veil there is fear too. We are, after all, human and even those that are Spirit Guides have their stuff to work on too.

There is much of this fear of disappointment in the human construct. It is fear of letting people down, fear of being let down and do you not find yourself sometimes wondering if you do something will you disappoint your spouse? This has been engrained for such a long time, over centuries and this type of programming does indeed take time to reverse. Even in relationships, marriages, partnerships, people act a certain way or try to live up to a certain ‘standard’ as they too are afraid of letting their other one down. There is also the fear of talking about this type of stuff within relationships but it is in fact, something that does need to be overcome. Being able to freely talk with the partner about anything and everything, no secrets (unless there are surprises) is the relationships that are best served.

Even this one endured it for a number of relationships. Fear of loss, fear of disappointing others, giving everything for little return and then to be exploited by those that are engulfed by their ego or do not even think to be generous. The ego mindset likes to exploit people and is rather difficult to detect if those that do not have the level of awareness. Demands are made, expectations are given and the guilt trip is then implied which is the emotional and mental manipulation that these people give in order to gain something that they do not want to get. Those that are gentle are left being exposed and feeling vulnerable as they continue being exploited. Then other side of this coin is that the gentle ones are then left to adapt to that sort of behaviour as a defensive mechanism, which is ego meeting with ego and is not a healthy regime. Thus, those that are gentle of nature are caught up as they know that they do not like it happening to them, so they don’t do it to others. These scenarios are given to incarnates to help them learn to develop their personality, their nature, their mental and emotional strength, to encourage them to step into their authenticity and in a way, stand up for themselves to say “NO”. This type of shift starts with themselves as the ego will continue to exploit until there is such a time that they cannot achieve what they want from the target victim and will move on. Many want to gain something with paying little and this is seen in corporations around the world.

The reason this is coming up now is for the energy to be released as these are ways of the old, to shift into the new and to allow for the recognition of the emotions. If one tries to release something without knowing or doing the work, then how is it to shift? The shift will not occur without any recognition of what is it that needs to be shifted and it takes time. Many people will be experiencing the shift and as we break ties with people that represent the old ways, do we change.